0.1 Millionaire

Guess what baby...if people who owned a million of money in his country...
We call them Millionaire...
Then how bout 0.1 millionaire?
:P

I am nothing but shit!!!

U never know how hard it could be to live in a JEWNESE family like mine especially when ur parent is filthy rich and they never know how hard it could be to their "ordinary" son who try his best to be the son that they want. You couldnt even imagin how suffer i am. When a lots of kids could have their own pairs of NIKE o ADIDAS,I bought my first pair of NIKE at 20. I know there are a lots of people couldn't even feed their stomach full,but u know i live in a above middle class family? And my mum even told me that i shouldnt buy that,a nike shoe is not different from a rubbish,and all of a sudden i am a materialistic guy? WHAT? what is the fault of buying a pair of nike shoe? what is wrong with me? Even my sis would like to have one...just because my mum always told her "NIKE IS BAD,BRANDED STUFF IS NOT GOOD" FUCK! ITS so not true.

I am just a ordinary guy...if u wan a prodigy child? why dont they try to search in ebay and try to bid one there? I am born in this way...i cant grow in the way they want...U wan a full A student? SO WHAT? U want a SON who score above 7.0 in ielts? Sorry i couldnt be that way...i am just i...i couldnt change. I am so stress...because of the money...DONT CALL ME A SCUM IF I GIVE MYSELF UP.My dad just said this...if i work for him...he could use the 200K which is my college fund to buy a better car...just add FEW more HUNDRED THOUSAND RIGGIT...i could drive a mercedes luxurious car in less than few months...

FUCK...U THINK U ARE GOOD ENUF? U ARE IGNORANT!!! SO IGNORANT OF BEING A SHIT!!! EVEN A SHIT LIKE ME ARE SO IGNORANT THAT I SHOULD FLUSH MYSELF AWAY THE MOMENT I FALL INTO THIS WORLD...THIS FILTHY WORLD...

FINALLY...GOD...U THINK U EXIST??!!! FUCK U!!! TO ALL YOU GOD BELIEVER...GOD IS JUST A MOUSE O CAT WHO COULDNT EVEN HELP U AT ALL...MIRACLE? JESUS CHRIST? BUDDHA? MUHAMMED?

ONLY GAGA is there...i am so peacefully love her,he song,her music,the tune of her music...the rhythm..."I WANT YOUR LOVE,I DONT WANNA BE FRIEND",IF she could debut 2 or 3 years earlier...i wont cried for her. I could be a better man!!!

Study is never enough...my parent are so vicious...i shouldnt born in this family...the family i should be is africa where i starve everydays...my stomach is so big and doctor from UN told me it is a disease...What lies beyond of me is DEAD. IF i never exist or if i die at 4...no more gaga...no more fren...no more love...no more revenge...FUCK.

A waste of time

Instead of wasting my time on some useless crap...i rather to concentrate more on my life aka my future. Perhaps to study some course which is useless,which might bring me a lame future. Should I? Should i give up on studies and move on to work for my family business? In that way,it seems i could gain more fortune,i was told i could earn 1000K in less than 10years...this is what my father told me. But what if i failed or i cant even experience life in University at all? when people ask me where i graduated from? i answer i am only at a education level of high school? It is embarassing. What seems to be good now doesnt guarantee that it might last forever.

I am losing my heart. It is FADING...

STUPID MAN

*YAWN*
We all know that inflation has been long a major issue which widely discussed by all of us since last two years,so its stupid to discuss this issue again ,therefore i aint gonna mention it here.
XD

YAH...just wait for another 12hours to pass and i will be arrived in kk. But before that,i should make myself a plan,what should i do in these few days? that is the question. As not all of you know my main purpose to KK tomorrow,so here and now,imma let you know. First of all,i am going to there sit for IELTS,(the not so hard for someone,and so hard for me english test)I dun really want to think about what band i will get in my ielts. I am freaking scared right this moment,just to imagine about it making me chill. by the way,i do anticipate my self to get a good result(who want to get a result that sucks?)...at least 6.5!!! PLEASE!! Even if i fail,i dun think i will be shame on myself,cause everyone know my english is paria level...but what make me worrying all this time is,if i get a band lower than 6.5...i dun think i will be given the chance or offer to enrol in the uni that i want anymore...And what should i do then? I have no hope? is it?

And here is my schedule...

25(tomorrow), first of all,after i have my breakfast,then i will go and check in before 8am in the airport...and most likely will depart at KK at 9am if the flight werent delay.i will have lunch with pheo and eddie at 12.40pm? maybe? cant assure with you guys right this moment cause i stil have to see whether my relative want me to hav lunch with them or not. And my next purpose is that i need to get my ALV and MORAL certificate paper certified by madam lim,so maybe i will going to IS after the lunch with PHEO N Eddie o MY RELATIVE. NOT SURE YET!

26(saturday),I will spend my whole day in Le meridien hotel for IELTS...GOD BLESS ME!!!

27(SUNDAY),OI...NO PLAN...depends on how eddie plan for that day.

28(MONDAY),Just in case i cant get my cert or i still have unfinished things to do...so must get everythings done today.

29(tuesday),BYE BYE KK!

p.s.
URRGGG,My father gave me some money to spend in KK...but i dont think i wanna spend it here. better save it for the next time in KL or for somethings that i reli reli want.
Currently what i want the most is a NIKE SHOE,a cool PARKA,Few cool T-shirts,and maybe a set of tracksuit?

Possibilities

I am going to kk soon.

i feel like times are never enough for me. Human are Greedy,am i true? LOL

I always tried to figure out what was happening before i think what i was thinking . Do i miss my past?Sure i do, Because so many happy,unhappy,weird things had been happened to me in the previous time.

I still remember the time we are all on the same table,eating lunch togather in the canteen,and we always bought some candies when we leave the canteen. Still remember that time we scolded by the teacher because we tried to argue with him. And we always gossip the latest "news" when there are no teacher,hooraay...that was the happiest moment to me.

and the unhappy one...which is the blah blah blah...you making me sad everyday,making me distracted from the class every lesson,i enjoy making fun from u...and i thought u were happy too. U rather us to be friend than... I still miss u...i cant said the feeling is 100% gone,i still think...once the chance are given to me,and i will gripped it as tight as possible i can.

The weird one is...some unsolved problem that remains as Mystery now. HHmmm...I am seriously unhappy bout this. I had once made a remark to my fellow friends that i am not going to study anymore...which i would rather work for my father,but how come it ends up as I studied a-level for 1 year,retake for half year,another half year for ielts, and there is still a chance that i will most probably go to IMU for 2 years,then UK another 2 years and finally a MPHARM master degree for me. XD then,i will do my paid pre-register training thr for 1 year there...and finally get a PR. Am i going too far? whatever,if i was giving up my study plan last time,i will be driving a MERCEDES BENZ now. JUST...WHATEVER...LIFE is SO UNFAIR.

p.s.
:O
APPARENTLY...I AM UNHAPPY BOUT THIS.
Why am i drive a FUCKING PROTON NOW?

“I know it’s easy to imagine but its easier to just “do” If you can’t “do” what you imagine then what is imagination to you? Just a waste of space in your brain to take the place of hate or things all the same.”
— Kid Cudi

IN-SOM-NIA

I cant sleep again,i feel so stress,everythings is in my Brain and it make me feel so confused. Even my brain itself,its screaming,"BOON!!!AH!!!"and i can sure all i had been studying this whole time,its definitely not a waste,been revising grammar a lots,i notice that when i was studying in my secondary school,the teacher stop teaching us grammar anymore after form 3,so where had i been in these 3 years? and its such a miracle that i still passed every papers of my english subject before i graduated from school.

Why?

Maybe i am talented? Yeah kinda of...Had never been studying for 6 years in school...and even scored C5 for chem,D7 for bio,B3 for physics in my spm...WTF...Its totally different to my result in Alevel which i almost failed my physics and luckily enough to score a F. When it comes to UEC...I scored C8 in chem,failed bio,by the way i give up physics already, so i was purposely not attending the physics paper.
let me summarise this...
from SPM TO UEC,then to ALEVEL...My result is
CHEM: C5 --> C8 --> A!
PHY: B3 --> SKIPPED --> Failed
BIO: D7 --> Failed --> C

Math is the most lame subject for me. I dont like math at all...cause UEC maths is something that you will never learn anythings from it.

and i am going to sit ielts after 11days and i am fxxkin nervous now. My most worried part is the writing and speaking, because english is not the language that i speak as my primary language, hence it will be very hard for me to comes up with idea in english fast. And most of the time i cant understand my own english too...T-T
So I must...

p.s.
Quoted from "Southpark",
Jimmy: "nothing changed,our opinion of you cant possible go any lower."

Should i + shoe?

Here are some new shoes from Nike that will be releasing this holiday 2009 season.
As i mentioned in the title,i do need a new shoe which looks real dope,so that i could dressing up like a real rap star. Just a little problem is, that i might encounter the difficulty in buying any pair of these shoes,cause Nike retailer store here doesnt really seems to import these stuff from USA,maybe due to the lack of market in malaysia which main reason is the shoes price too high and the the currency here is FXXKING LOW.

I wish i was a baby that born in a rich family that i comes up with a golden spoon in mouth,which i dont really care any currency issue,why would i care if i was given a lots of money from the day i born?


Whatever,I just wish my parent would sponsor me a pair of these DOPE.

p.s.

LAME...LAME...

I NEED A PAIR OF NEW SHOES...

SHOES...SHOES...

Thoughts

1.Computer games
Computer Games sucks! DOTA? Sucks!
Left 4 Dead?
I hate myself cause i played this game a month ago.

2.MP3
Cant stop myself from downloading this.
beside,i heard they said you become sexier the more u listen to songs.

3.Southpark
Another unsolved mystery,Its obvious that we asian dont watch south park at all,
even if we do,its just a very tiny portion of us.

4.Facebook
Shit,i am addicted to it,o maybe i have this illness,facebook deficit disorder.
Whatever.

5.Weight
Weight gained a lots...emm,i am not fat,i am just big bone.
BEEF CAKE!!!

Beauty and the beast

Visited to Sepilok yesterday.
Some of my relative from Seramban came to Sandakan.
And lucky that my parent was free yesterday(which is National day).
so, my parent decided to bring them to some of the tourist spots.
And...i was along with them the whole 1 day trip.

Kinda of bored there,the weather is hot.
But its still lucky for me to witness this.
A Orang Utan hugging those female foreigner tourist.
Beside,this stupid O.U. got a good sense in picking woman.

Before he clinging on his desirable woman(lol...),
he walking around,looking around,finging for Pretty woman...
While those big fat ladies or MAN who tried to approach him,
He just dont give a Fxxk.

Its true that MONKEY-type animals are as cleaver as we do.
Their brain is identical to us...at least in picking women. XD



A foreigner lady...and the stupid monkey...

I heard this woman said : "i think he like gals."

A lovely couple and the red hair O.U..
lol,that little girls seems curious to the O.U.

See? the little girl tried to touch the O.U.
I cant explain why the crowd are so interested in this monkey,
i rather more interested in this lady. XD

p.s.
As a conclusion,monkeys are so evil...
So do I.
:)

I hate facebook

Lately...i had developed somekind of FB-syndrome...
i logging into my FB account,at least for N+ times per day.
Am i addicted? to FB?

My first step is: try to check my FB one time a day,
before this habit extensively formed.

Must reverse this before i trapped deeper.